Broken Arch

PROLOGUE

2013

“They say that “Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold…”

“When I chose to have you, I gathered all my strength to face any…and… all consequences. Because I know…I know that it would be hard…for me, for us. I thought that, this relationship would not be easy, knowing that you were far away from me, knowing that I would always want to see you, touch you and kiss you. Knowing that, miles between us were obstacles and that the only place where I could see you every day was in my dream.

“Every night I cry, each night that I was longing for you, those nights that I needed you… because I wanted someone who would be there to caress me, to understand me, someone who would make me feel that I’m not alone, that I’m not a loser… and most of all, I wanted you to be there to say that I’m not nothing…”

“I wanted to see your face Lexie…those were the nights that I wanted to feel you breathe. Nights in which my heart was beating so fast…so fast that it would went out of my chest because I was very happy, but at the same…it was… it was tearing apart, breaking into small pieces…coz I couldn’t have you…I couldn’t have you in my arms…”

We are standing in the middle of the room, staring at each other. My fingers are quiet shaking and my vision is now getting blurred because of the tears slowly flowing down my cheeks. I take a deep breath and hold her hand. I bite my lip, wipe my tears and try to stop myself from crying.

“I love you…after all that we sacrificed. After all our fights… misunderstandings and all the things that had hurt us…it has made my love stronger. Hon, you made me stronger. You made me believe in something I never thought could happen. ” I went on as my tears were falling again. My throat was dry and my words were broken.

Lexie lifts my hands and kisses them. She moves closer and holds my cheek. She looks at me from my eyes down to my lips. She smiles and opens her mouth to say a word.

“I love you baby…” she whispered. And I can see how she means it through her eyes. She’s wearing her heavenly smile as she slowly running her thumb in my lips. “I love you...” she said again. “Thank you. Thank you for giving me the chance…I’m so glad to have you…I love you… “. And I see little drops of tears forming in her eyes. I wipe them and kiss her forehead.

“I love you too baby…I love you so much…”I said.

Our heads then move slowly to meet each other’s lips. I lean down and slowly kiss her mouth. I can smell the scent of her breath. I wrap my hands around her hips. I squeeze them and run my hand through her butt. Her breasts are press against mine. Her kisses are soft and very passionate. She’s biting my lips gently and licking them. I suck her tongue while it goes inside my mouth.

About the Author

   

I am a silent enigma

An aspiring professional writer

My field of study is finance and investment

I love art and music

Twenty five percent of what I call home is the World Wide Web

I had a lot of heart breaks

I had fell in love several times

And I can easily fall in love

…

Silent Enigma

"She's like every girl in the world." 
It sounded simple. But that was before she'd widened her eyes and found herself outside an eight cornered room. At the depth of her human heart lies a doubtful, strange thing. These were secrets she doesn't want to reveal but she wants to be clear. 

*** 
She played dolls, yet she like robots. 
She allured men, but she desires women. 
She was with a guy, and yet she fantasizes a girl. 
She cuddled a man, but feel ardor with a woman. 
She kissed boys, but taste girls' mouth. 
She licked hard dicks, yet she wanted to suck wet clits. 

She had her man who never break her heart, and yet never gets her love. 
She then had her girl and gave 'her' love but then broke 'her' heart. 

Vein under her skin is a female, but blood in it is a male. 

Through the years, she is brooding herself over these doubts. And her mind still wander. 

She wants to find answers that are left untold. 
The earth has a lot of mysteries she wants to be unfold. 

Vices and Virtues

PROLOGUE

Until now,
I keep on looking at your pictures pinned on my wall
I keep on thinking of you at night…
Until the sun’s in the midst of the cloud
(This is crazy…)
I keep on dreaming that someday I’ll be in your eyes
I keep on praying that I will someday touch your lips;
Hoping that I can breathe the air you breathe…


VICES.1


Nakakainip sa bahay. Mabuti na lang at may nag aya sa akin na mamasyal. Papunta ako sa isang hotel, mga 2 oras ang layo mula sa bahay namin. Makikipagkita ako sa isang matagal ko ng kaibigan. James ang pangalan niya. Pagtext niya ay nakiusap na rin ako na magkita naman kami sa ibang hotel; at sa mas malayo. Ayoko na may bigla akong makasalubong na kilala ko sa madalas na naming pinupuntahang hotel. At pumayag naman siya. Mga apat na taon na rin kaming magkakilala ni James. Pero sa pagitan ng apat na taon nay un ay nawalan kami ng komunikasyon dahil nagkaroon akong naging karelasyon.


Nakasakay na ako ng LRT; 30 minutes na lang nandoon na ako sa venue. Maya maya ay nakaramdam ako ng gutom. Alas dos na pala ng hapon at hindi pa ako nakapagtanghalian. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa aking bag at nagpadala ng text message kay James.


“Sa Mcdo na lang tayo magkita, nagugutom ako. Hindi pa ako nglunch eh. Wala akong energy para mamaya. Hehe…” sabi ko sa text. Dalawang minuto ang lumipas at natanggap ko ng kanyang reply, “Ok, cge”.


Sarap bumyahe kapag hindi masikip ang trapik. Katulad ng sa tren. Tapos, ang gagawin mo lang ay magmamasid sa malayo habang nangangarap ng gising. Ito ang madalas kong gawain sa tuwing papasok ako ng eskwelehan. Malaya kang isipin kung ano ang gusto mo habang kung ano anong ideya ang pumapasok sa isip mo dahil sa marami kang mga bagay na nakikita na hindi mo naman talaga nakikita.


Maya maya ay nagvibrate ang cellphone ko. “Sa Edsa na lang tayo mgkita, sa kabilang exit”, text ni James. “Ok,” reply ko.


Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas at sari sari pang mga ideya ang pumasok sa isip ko habang nakikinig sa playlist ng aking ipod; masasaya, malulungkot.



“Approaching Edsa Station”, sabi ng voice over sa tren. Well, hindi ko alam kung anong tawag sa kanya. Pero sa wakas nakarating din, gutom na gutom na talaga ako.  Inayos ko na ang sarili ko at hinanda na ang aking ticket para sa paglabas ng tren. “Edsa na ko,” text ko kay James.


Pagdating sa istasyon ay palingon lingon na ko sa paligid at hinahanap si James. Nasaan na ba yun, tanong ko sa isip ko. Nakalabas na ako ng gate at hindi ko pa rin siya nakikita. Ayaw kong ilabas ang cellphone ko sa ganun kadaming tao at baka masnatch pa ang kaisaisang cellphone ko. Palapit na ako ng hagdan pababa ng makita ko siya na doon naghihintay. Ngumiti ako para hindi naman suplada ang dating. Binuhat ko na ang paa ko pababa ng hagdan. “Hindi ka pa naglunch?” tanong niya. “Not yet”, sagot ko. Tinungo na namin ang fast food resto at pinapipili ng pagkain. Of course, rice meal ang inorder ko. Busog daw siya kaya nag order lang siya ng large fries. Mabilis naming nakuha ang order naming at umakyat sa second floor ng resto para doon kumain. Hindi na ako nagpatumpik tumpik pa at sumubo ng isang kutsarang pagkain; dalawa tatlo at higit pa. Tahimik akong kumain, ayoko magpaabala. Samantalang tahimik rin naman siyang linasap ang kanyang large fries na order. Sanay na siya sa ugali ko, pagiging suplada ng kaunti. Gutom na gutom akong sinisimot bawat butil sa plato ko. Maliit lang akong tao. Minsan lang ako may ganang kumain ng marami, at pagnangyayari yun, hanggang dalawang rice lang ang nakakaya ng tiyan ko.